So I have a lot to do today. Normally, I’d sleep until 45 minutes before I needed to get started but I woke up with the alarm and stayed up for a change. Yesterday or the day before if we’re being time specific (y’all the days are blurring together with the sleep issues), I sent …
up early, not feeling broken, still a little lonely Read More »
I’ve been mulling this post over in my head for a few days. I’m sure I’ve written something like it before but I haven’t the motivation to go track it down in a decade plus of writings. I’ve been very slowly reengaging with my kinky self and in doing so have had a few things …
I didn’t get enough of it but I got some good sleep last night. Then I got the toss and turn as 7 am hit and my bladder said bitch get out of bed. It allowed me to see that Novak won before it got too late in the day and to have an epiphany …
i was scrolling Twitter yesterday and someone posed the question: are you really good being single or have you accepted it because that’s all you’ve ever known. i was struck by that because it made me think was i really good being single. and i sat with that for a while. i really am. i …
A few days ago i logged off of Fetlife maybe for the last time. Outside of looking at one man and arbitrarily reading what was on Kinky and Popular, I wasn’t engaging as much as I used to do. The threads started to feel antagonistic or just weren’t interesting to me. That’s a by product …
I started on this post a few hours ago and then got distracted. I do that though so I wasn’t feeling upset about that. It let me settle into my thoughts more and come at this from a different perspective. I am not a huge horoscope girl. I read them from time to time just …
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prompt: if you have a list of rules, how often are they sorted through, changed or additions made? don’t have them now, didn’t have them before so they were never sorted through, changed or additions made. as i have mentioned over the last few posts i don’t know how i would have reacted even if …
Prompt for today: If SM is part of your dynamic, explain how pain works for you. Is it a sexual turn-on, a healing release, a spiritual moment, a session of giving? So I read this question and then had to realize that pain is not a part of everyone’s dynamic. This may be one …
i don’t always say what i want to say here because i’m not sure who is reading it. that’s dumb because as best i can tell the only people reading this are bots and me. i don’t want to make people uncomfortable but i don’t have anyone to talk about this stuff with anymore. i’m …
I debated posting this to my private blog but you’ve seen the relationships play out in public so this is just another step along that path. I couldn’t sleep last night, clearly, which is why I was up blogging before I went to bed. I am not sure why I went and click on an …
This only matters to me, skip it if you don’t want to dance around in circles Read More »