the last few days have been interestingly chaotic for me emotionally. i have had some ups and downs and most of it was brought on by me thinking i was out of the funk in my head regarding kink. i mostly have but i still have moments where i default back into my old patterns. …
This will be an odd post so if you aren’t up for that, totally okay. Just go ahead and find something labeled smut or kinky or maybe even violence. Yesterday I was chatting with GN about random things and as the night wore on I asked him something I had been wondering about. Do you …
i am two days out from submitting the major project that i have to submit if i want a promotion. not quite two days because i submitted it at 5pm on Friday but close to two days. it took the better part of six months to pull together, remember little meticulous parts of how the …
I may revisit it before bed but I got a new toy from Mr. Hankeys called kthulu. It felt so nice all stuffed inside of me and I am glad I got the small and not the medium because I may have ruined my girly bits trying to keep it inside of me. I recorded …
Image taken from Ambient Geek Sleep Aids It’s very much feast or famine for me some days when it comes to the energy I have to expend and the ways in which I am willing to expend it. I have felt that energy depleting lately and honestly I don’t particularly like it. There’s just not …
Thinking about submission is always a weird thing for me. I think about where I’ve been and where I want to be. I think about what I’ve learned and what I still need to learn about myself, the universe and the person I will ultimately serve. One of the things that has tripped me up …
Hey Good People, if you are on fetlife then you already know where this post is probably headed. A few nights ago, after a long chat with GN, I had a dream that threw me off balance. The dream itself was a silly one like normal for me when I’ve been tired and I’m finally …
Y’all know I like to read. I read more or less depending on what is going on in my life but I like to consume new information and see how it fits in my life. The last 10 days or so has been spent being cranky that I had finally gotten COVID, happy that it …
I’m going to be at a hotel for the next week. I have things to do in the day but most evenings I can come in and get nude. I bought a few toys from Mr. Hankeys after talking to Good Nyte about wanting some new dildos. I’ve been using my Magic Wand to get …
i’ve been chatting with folks about different things and keep coming to the same conclusion. my heart is perpetually open to new experiences when i’m healthy. while i’m healing, i’m rehashing and wondering what i could have done differently to not be in the middle of healing again. once i’m on that precipice of healed …
