I read symbolism into things when I shouldn’t sometimes. I got very annoyed a few months ago because everything kept randomly flashing back to Amsterdam/The Netherlands when I was trying to sort out whatever emotions had been stirred up while I was there for my birthday. Pet insurance commercials, random shit on the radio, nail […]
new beginnings, possibly in old places Read More »
I have been running for the last couple of weeks and it’s draining me. I don’t mean physically running because why the fuck would I do that. But projects at work are ramping back up and it’s throwing off my chill mood from last month. All of the foolishness is slowing me down. I’m tried
my energy is bottoming out, so let’s plan trips Read More »
I just had to check to see when I first posted on this blog. I am a few months shy of 18 years which is stupefying for me but it’s not like I’ve been consistent in that nearly 18 years. Some months have been much more invested than others and there have been long periods
Rebirth of Kinky Klaire Read More »
This week was fine in terms of what I needed to write about. Nothing overwhelmingly triggering except maybe discussing my one and only foray into polyamory crashing and burning. The prompts for this week are things I have already processed to some degree. Things with Emperor were never peaches and cream so it doesn’t
Weekly Recap: Three Weeks In + Sad Read More »
i like anonymity, clearly, and because of my race, occupation and family structure then without it i run the risk of losing everything i really care about. i’ve been reflecting a lot lately on what i lose maintaining that anonymity. parts of my body are shared with the universe but never my face. my partners
realizations and frustrations Read More »
I’ve been chatting it up with one of my exes a lot lately. Mostly as I process and work through complicated grieving I’m having related to another ex. That’s awkward at best but it’s been useful. I probably need to sage this space as I told grief invoking ex that too much of it reminds
and yes i did totally steal that from Nick Jonas. As an aside as i was making sure that it was Nick and the title was correct, i found out that he had done a bunch of Youtube videos about making the album and on it he mentions meeting his eventual wife in a bit
last year was complicated part one Read More »
No idea why that song is stuck in my head right now. I could say that it’s because of the cold medicine that is not working but that definitely isn’t it. I could say it’s the time of the year that normally throws me off something awful because of the anniversary but I can’t say
Life Could Be a Dream… Read More »
Happy Easter to all of those that celebrate. I’m laying in bed wearing part of what I left the house in yesterday. I can’t sleep in pants. It drives me nuts. Unless I’m on a plane and undressing mid flight seems like a bad idea. Before I get deep into this post it’s not about
In Retrospect, I believe I’ve Made a Mistake Read More »
So this post will be in direct contrast on one level to the lovely vacation recap. I am very aware of my insecurities and most days I can keep them at bay. I’m smart, able to pay my bills with no intrusions, take vacations when I can, can cook and back and no those are
When Do You Feel Like Enough? Read More »
