I am a December kid. It’s something I have always enjoyed because my parents never made me choose between my birthday and Christmas. And when I was much younger folks liked partying with me because it was a fun thing to do as school was ending and before Christmas hit. I like it now because […]
reflections as another birthday has come and gone Read More »
I need to be going to sleep. I’ve been moving it feels like non stop for almost two weeks. And I still have four more days of why are we doing this right now before it eases up for another few days. But I heard a song in my head and it has made it
memories seem to haunt me Read More »
I was chatting with GN earlier and told him that I was proud of myself for not slipping back into checking out what my former Dom was doing. This is a weird conversation to have with another former Dom but we’re friends now like we were before we were in a dynamic so it’s not
detoxifying and sobriety Read More »
I contemplated making this a string of Usher song quotes because I’ve been listening to him for the last hour or so, having a little concert and minding my business while dinner is chilling in the slow cooker. But legitimately I don’t have the brain power to do that right now. I had a flare
i go wherever you go Read More »
My mind can be a jumble sometimes. I think that’s why I keep busy because in those moments I don’t have the time or energy to overthink. I have been told that I overthink because I’m trying to cover all the angles because my brain is outpacing the folks around me. I don’t believe that
i know you are probably wondering why that warrants being the title but it took a lot for me to click the button and to leave it clicked. i know he was just living his best life but he was doing it without me which was annoying. not every day but when it did bother
i unfollowed my ex Read More »
As the title says I should still be semi unconscious, but I’m planning something so when my alarm went off and I saw a response from my contact person I sat up and then was shocked by the new expense. I have already emailed them in a hopeful negotiation but I may have to remove
I should really be half asleep Read More »
only a few of my exes ever felt like they radically shifted my understanding of myself, sacrifice and love in general. that is not to say that the others were not important to me or didn’t impact me in significant ways. it just means that my brain isn’t saying why didn’t that work out about
i keep forgetting we’re not in love anymore part two Read More »
only a few of my exes ever felt like they radically shifted my understanding of myself, sacrifice and love in general. that is not to say that the others were not important to me or didn’t impact me in significant ways. it just means that my brain isn’t saying why didn’t that work out about
i keep forgetting we’re not in love anymore part one Read More »
the last few days have been interestingly chaotic for me emotionally. i have had some ups and downs and most of it was brought on by me thinking i was out of the funk in my head regarding kink. i mostly have but i still have moments where i default back into my old patterns.
some days meh, some days yes bitch Read More »
