I’ve been posting a lot lately which I admit is weird after years of being inconsistent at best. I’ve been processing things more and instead of mulling them over in my head and driving myself crazy, I update the blog. Today after I sorted through more adulting I actually did what I planned to […]
Falling Back Into Myself Read More »
I turned off my alarm because this morning I had no meetings and no place to be before 10. I checked my messages, ignored email, scanned fet, did my morning routine and nodded off again until I really had to be awake. I was looking forward to hearing from someone and as of yet that
It’s been an interesting day Read More »
i think i get to go to bed soon. i say think because honestly the more tired i’ve been lately the harder it has been to sleep. that’s my standard procedure though. after being at work late three nights in a row i mistakenly thought i only had a few things to do today. nope
when exhaustion meets a new stimuli Read More »
I normally wake up on Mondays with a ton of plans about how I’m gonna conquer the day. This morning I got up, went to the bathroom, turned off my alarm and said FUCK IT before promptly laying right on back down. I didn’t stay asleep very long before allegedly going through my wake up
today was well random Read More »
rocking out peacefully to some Sam Smith right now. lots of information has been coming in at me this week when it comes to my relationship patterns and partners. it’s caused some tears, some aggravation, some anger and some catharsis. i made bad decisions and i need to own some of that. not in loving
i choose me and i know that makes me selfish love Read More »
hey folks, i’m going to bed after this but i wanted to post something before i went to bed. i’ve been randomly horny for the last two weeks. it has to be balanced against my sleep cycle because last night kittens wanted to die but my snoring wanted to commence immediately. tonight i was cresting
randomness that is red Read More »
i have been pondering this for the last few days/weeks what have you. i know that karamel on fet provided all kinds of musings for me at one point but it wasn’t in a “submissive, let me splay myself out for you can give over dominion of myself to you” kind of way. the
can one have a kink muse or am i just an addict? Read More »
Just realized I have some hidden posts to make sure the blog displays correctly. Ha it doesn’t matter. Life is crazy busy lately. And weird if I’m going to be honest. Some good things happened and I’m happy about all the new directions things are going. Some annoying things happened but–and no offense to the
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This blog has been around almost as long as I have allowed myself to engage in the lifestyle. I renewed the domain not too long ago because I wasn’t sure I was ready to let it go. It, or my place within the lifestyle. Honestly, I keep playing that about in my head and I’m
I’ve been crying off and on for the last hour. It’s the culmination of too much stress and not enough love in my life. The people I reach out to for support have stopped responding. Almost none of them have reached out to me first over the last year. The only kinky person that touched
