I am tired. A year plus of working in masks, trying to do my job well, not murdering dumb people who won’t wear masks, not traveling, having to pivot with little to no warning, and fighting with my body is killing me. I’ve been bugging my mother to massage my scalp. It helps with hair […]
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I went to bed last night thinking about how to let go of old emotional entanglements that were no longer serving me. I fully intended on making a side trip while I was in in the city I get my hair done in but the plan took a swift detour. Earlier today I got a
Life is hectic and things distract me just when I need it most. I was in a funk the last few posts to be sure. I was in my feelings about the Dutchman and why it didn’t work out but the truth of the matter is, it doesn’t matter why it didn’t work out. It
this post will likely be a hot mess so if you keep reading you have been warned. i have known that i was a submissive for twenty years. in that time it was never fully safe for me to be out and about in the community but the internet made it easier to connect to
I should be asleep. I’m up eating ice cream instead, Whiskey Biz to be exact. I have a presentation to give in the morning and while I will probably be fine, my mouth can get reckless when I haven’t slept as much as I need to sometimes. I’m not sure it will matter in this
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I have these ebbs and flows with my energy, focus, emotions and submission. Yesterday was likely a down day. There’s always too much to do and not enough time to do it in period. I took the day off and let myself feel life. It was good and I got my much needed reset. I
Good Sleep and New Dreams Read More »
I’ve been meaning to post for a few days and honestly sheer exhaustion has kicked in each time. Work is busy and I have been playing tennis most of the last month so yeah by my nighttime relaxation kicks in I’m ready for unconsciousness and not a lot else. As I was changing the
Old Mattresses and Old Loves Read More »
I have literally no plan for this post so you are going to get some massive train of thought stuff here. I’m watching the French Open which I love. You never know what is going to happen on clay. We’ve already had a retirement on the men’s side, feel better Grigor, major upset on the
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I will have to come back to the title. It’s been pressing on me that I needed to post something soon. Not sure why but it’s been on my mind. I think my last few posts were definitely stress induced–I may have mentioned that then but who knows. Living in a pandemic is whole lot.
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I’m feeling better today. It’s still Saturday and I still ain’t got nobody. And honestly that is just what it is right now. Work is busy but semi on autopilot. Home life is improving even if I need to get back on the grind health wise. After losing some weight, it has found me again.
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