I am struggling to figure out what what I want to be doing and when and where right now. I am happier than I have been right now in a lot of ways. Work is good, my long suffering stomach is mellowed the hell out, I have clicked with a trainer, I’m losing weight, I’m […]
The Struggle is Ever Present Read More »
So we have journeyed around a variety of things about me and thankfully no one has asked me anything that I haven’t been able to answer. I’m not sure what this post will turn into but what it was sparked by was the concept of wanting and its juxtaposition against a need. I want a
TTF part 4: a red velvet primer Read More »
That title will sound crazy. After I all, I own this domain, have been writing for a VERY long time using it and at the moment am single so why would censorship even be something on my mind at the moment. Well I’ll tell you why lol. Most of the time that I have had
Censoring Myself?!?!? Read More »
I am an odd girl sometimes. I have these random moments of clarity that don’t have any bearing on me changing things really but it helps me make peace with a new part of my persona. Today I realized that part of my issue when it comes to settling down is I crave the excitement
I think I might be a Lust Slut Read More »
Not sure what the focus of this will be but I know there are some things you should probably know that weren’t included in the first two posts. I am a consummate tomboy. Despite the boobs, and don’t get me wrong I like no I freaking love the boobs, there are very few people that
TTF part 3: a red velvet primer Read More »
So I left you with a snippet of where the pain may have entered into the picture. I can say I wasn’t quite sure that’s what I was looking for until I wasn’t playing with him anymore. Even though it had come up with my HS boyfriend, his pain was mild and his control over
TTF Part 2: a red velvet primer Read More »
Mr. Wolf has joked with me repeatedly that he needs a primer to understand all the weird things that are comprised inside of me. The more I thought about it though the more I have heard that from different people who either have dated me or wanted to date me. It largely seems to center
Touch the Fabric Part 1: A red velvet primer Read More »
I normally hate bullet posts. They feel lazy to me most days but my thoughts are all over the place yet again so it seems easier to do that and edit them as I write than try to tie together twelve tiny paragraphs. I am an introverted slightly confusing attention whore. I don’t want the
These are my confessions Read More »
My brain has been all over the place late. So many moments of indecision and confusion and brief shining moments of clarity. There have been moments of elation, frustration, exhaustion, envy and lust but none of them have been around long enough to purge me of its friends. They have swept in like carrion birds
Today was one that got completely derailed from jump. An appointment was later than planned, ran longer than planned, involved more emotions than planned and ended up throwing off the rest of my day. I canceled meetings, played the dutiful daughter and came home stressed before getting drenched again after taking groceries out of the
The Other Side of Jealousy or What I Learned in a Rain Storm Read More »
