hey folks, i’m going to bed after this but i wanted to post something before i went to bed. i’ve been randomly horny for the last two weeks. it has to be balanced against my sleep cycle because last night kittens wanted to die but my snoring wanted to commence immediately. tonight i was cresting […]
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i have been pondering this for the last few days/weeks what have you. i know that karamel on fet provided all kinds of musings for me at one point but it wasn’t in a “submissive, let me splay myself out for you can give over dominion of myself to you” kind of way. the
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Just realized I have some hidden posts to make sure the blog displays correctly. Ha it doesn’t matter. Life is crazy busy lately. And weird if I’m going to be honest. Some good things happened and I’m happy about all the new directions things are going. Some annoying things happened but–and no offense to the
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This blog has been around almost as long as I have allowed myself to engage in the lifestyle. I renewed the domain not too long ago because I wasn’t sure I was ready to let it go. It, or my place within the lifestyle. Honestly, I keep playing that about in my head and I’m
I’ve been crying off and on for the last hour. It’s the culmination of too much stress and not enough love in my life. The people I reach out to for support have stopped responding. Almost none of them have reached out to me first over the last year. The only kinky person that touched
I am tired. A year plus of working in masks, trying to do my job well, not murdering dumb people who won’t wear masks, not traveling, having to pivot with little to no warning, and fighting with my body is killing me. I’ve been bugging my mother to massage my scalp. It helps with hair
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I went to bed last night thinking about how to let go of old emotional entanglements that were no longer serving me. I fully intended on making a side trip while I was in in the city I get my hair done in but the plan took a swift detour. Earlier today I got a
Life is hectic and things distract me just when I need it most. I was in a funk the last few posts to be sure. I was in my feelings about the Dutchman and why it didn’t work out but the truth of the matter is, it doesn’t matter why it didn’t work out. It
this post will likely be a hot mess so if you keep reading you have been warned. i have known that i was a submissive for twenty years. in that time it was never fully safe for me to be out and about in the community but the internet made it easier to connect to
I should be asleep. I’m up eating ice cream instead, Whiskey Biz to be exact. I have a presentation to give in the morning and while I will probably be fine, my mouth can get reckless when I haven’t slept as much as I need to sometimes. I’m not sure it will matter in this
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