over the last two weeks my faith in the world at large has been tested. work has been hectic. my mother has been nothing short of an intense throbbing pain in my ass. my brother has not leapt to volunteer aiding with relieving that throbbing pain and today my committee is opting to play with […]
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i had a bad dream last night, not one that hasn’t happened before but it still makes me uneasy when it reoccurs. after what has been a pretty good weekend all things considered with my family and Emperor through our contact, my brain took off to parts unknown and revisited my current greatest fear: that
bad dreams because of the bad subverse juju Read More »
i was woken up out of a sound sleep last night because i was in horrible pain. my stomach was cramping in the worst way but i knew it would pass if i could wait it out. this has happened enough to know the general procedure if that makes sense. as i went back to
horrible dream (or my future?) & some other stuff Read More »
today i woke up after having a horrible dream and i thought about Him. i showered and changed and left for work and i thought about Him. part of my body just melts when He is the thought of the moment. it feels more at peace and more happiness than i’ve known in a while.
thoughts on my personal civil war Read More »
i am definitely having a moment. i won’t get into it all right now because i really don’t want to upset all the positive energy that has been flowing through the sub universe right now. i think this all mostly related to me doing a periodic reevaluation of my life and what i want and
i’m not having a crisis but….. Read More »
around midnight last night, somewhat jokingly i hope, Emperor suggested i come see Him NOW. well that would so not be a problem if He lived around the corner. hell i’d probably never be home if He was that close. even if He were a few hours away i could have swung it. i miss
planes, trains and automobiles Read More »
i’m feeling better now. i have been less than stable this last week. the student dying, me being so far away from Emperor and then the unexpected hormonal whirlwind that is my period all left me in a funk. i cried last night, like retardedly copiuos tears because i couldn’t think of a thing to
so here we are again Read More »
and today is reinforcing that ever so much. i have a two alarm system in my house. i wake up and potty with the first one and lay back down. then i usually get up and moving before the second one goes off. well today not so much. i woke up rolled over hit the
ok i am not a morning person Read More »
okay so i’m immensely bored but it’s because i’m full of nervous energy and Emperor is being well Emperor. you know i’m all over the net reading and exposing myself to the lifestyle. being in my current locale means there is a definite lack of people of color to speak to in real life so
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