Author name: redvelvetaches

ahhh well petty is as petty does so that drama continues but my life is good. i got off work early enough to get to the auto dealership this afternoon. my car has been tempermental and while i would stop buy to get it checked since it wasn’t making the noise/having the issue at THAT

it’s been an interesting few days. yesterday was HORRIBLE. i was tired. i saw six clients and had a meeting before i went to do a two hour presentation. by the end of the day all i wanted was some dinner and to curl up and talk to Emperor. ahh well slight glitch. He’s otherwise

i finally got back to work on my dissertation. the first three chapters have hopefully been rewritten to standard. the next two will be done in the next few days and and then for a few days i’m gonna let my mind go numb. i don’t want to think. well at least not too hard.

12:31 PMokay well that was corny, but i have a lot of old rap songs in my head right now and that is the hook to one of them. but it does highlight a larger issue for me. i’m been very anxious lately. partly because well i’ve just been under way more stress than a

my mind is really scattered and truthfully the drivel that was coming up wasn’t even up to my whinging standards. i am happy and tired and behind on a project that i was ahead on. i miss my Emperor even though bright and earlier this morning i got a text from Him. i just wanna

okay i hope this is brief. i know i’ve probably mentioned this before but being this vulnerable to someone i care about makes me insecure from time to time. i used to bug the hell out of sidra about this. what if He finds someone to replace me? what do i do with all of

It could all be so simple But you’d rather make it hard Loving you is like a battle And we both end up with scars Tell me, who I have to be To get some reciprocity No one loves you more than me And no one ever will the song lyrics up to the right

for the first time in a minute i was jarred out of my happy sub state by an external source. i mean i do it to myself wondering if things are too good to be true or if i’m deluding myself by thinking Emperor really cares about me but i haven’t been doing that lately

ok so Emperor hates it when i call Him that but really that’s what i’m doing when i’m waiting for Him. we haven’t really talked since i bought my ticket to go visit. His sleep cycle seems more off than normal which was hard for me since i’m on call this week so i have