i finally got back to work on my dissertation. the first three chapters have hopefully been rewritten to standard. the next two will be done in the next few days and and then for a few days i’m gonna let my mind go numb. i don’t want to think. well at least not too hard. […]
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12:31 PMokay well that was corny, but i have a lot of old rap songs in my head right now and that is the hook to one of them. but it does highlight a larger issue for me. i’m been very anxious lately. partly because well i’ve just been under way more stress than a
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my mind is really scattered and truthfully the drivel that was coming up wasn’t even up to my whinging standards. i am happy and tired and behind on a project that i was ahead on. i miss my Emperor even though bright and earlier this morning i got a text from Him. i just wanna
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okay i hope this is brief. i know i’ve probably mentioned this before but being this vulnerable to someone i care about makes me insecure from time to time. i used to bug the hell out of sidra about this. what if He finds someone to replace me? what do i do with all of
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It could all be so simple But you’d rather make it hard Loving you is like a battle And we both end up with scars Tell me, who I have to be To get some reciprocity No one loves you more than me And no one ever will the song lyrics up to the right
for the first time in a minute i was jarred out of my happy sub state by an external source. i mean i do it to myself wondering if things are too good to be true or if i’m deluding myself by thinking Emperor really cares about me but i haven’t been doing that lately
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ok so Emperor hates it when i call Him that but really that’s what i’m doing when i’m waiting for Him. we haven’t really talked since i bought my ticket to go visit. His sleep cycle seems more off than normal which was hard for me since i’m on call this week so i have
okay so i’m tired, my head hurts again, my back is hurting and needs to be rubbed but guess what? i’m happy. well i’m slightly upset with myself. i’m watching sex and the city again. i detested the concept of this show when it originally aired but after being bombarded with questions and comments from
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okay i’m having a moment here. i greatly enjoy the time i get to spend with Emperor online and in person. i enjoy when i do something to gain His favor. it makes me smile to know that He is pleased. but it doesn’t feel like a comfortable situation right now. i’m sure i’m being
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okay so i went to bed late last night as you already know. He met me there again. i can’t recall all of this one now, i should have written this morning, but He’s been there a lot lately. i just remember feeling very safe with Him and happy that He had chosen me. before
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