It could all be so simple But you’d rather make it hard Loving you is like a battle And we both end up with scars Tell me, who I have to be To get some reciprocity No one loves you more than me And no one ever will the song lyrics up to the right […]

for the first time in a minute i was jarred out of my happy sub state by an external source. i mean i do it to myself wondering if things are too good to be true or if i’m deluding myself by thinking Emperor really cares about me but i haven’t been doing that lately

ok so Emperor hates it when i call Him that but really that’s what i’m doing when i’m waiting for Him. we haven’t really talked since i bought my ticket to go visit. His sleep cycle seems more off than normal which was hard for me since i’m on call this week so i have

okay i’m having a moment here. i greatly enjoy the time i get to spend with Emperor online and in person. i enjoy when i do something to gain His favor. it makes me smile to know that He is pleased. but it doesn’t feel like a comfortable situation right now. i’m sure i’m being

okay so it’s really late and as a result this may be a short post. we talked tonight. probably one of the last nights we will this week since He is going out of town this weekend. back to where i used to live actually for an event. of course i’ll miss Him but i’ll

Je suis le Maître si frustré. Vous m’avez appelé pour les semaines et il n’est pas arrivé. J’ai besoin de plus que le message immédiat occasionnel et je veux entendre Votre voix. Je ne peux pas être un bon esclave à Vous si Vous me gardez tout le temps si soucieux. Ceci n’est pas amusant

well i figured i should dust this off and revisit it now. the last time i put it up was mid august and we’re almost in october now. there will be some modifications i’m sure. i would like someone who is open and willing to train me to their SPECIFIC needs: eliminates confusion for me