Je suis le Maître si frustré. Vous m’avez appelé pour les semaines et il n’est pas arrivé. J’ai besoin de plus que le message immédiat occasionnel et je veux entendre Votre voix. Je ne peux pas être un bon esclave à Vous si Vous me gardez tout le temps si soucieux. Ceci n’est pas amusant […]
well i figured i should dust this off and revisit it now. the last time i put it up was mid august and we’re almost in october now. there will be some modifications i’m sure. i would like someone who is open and willing to train me to their SPECIFIC needs: eliminates confusion for me
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around midnight last night, somewhat jokingly i hope, Emperor suggested i come see Him NOW. well that would so not be a problem if He lived around the corner. hell i’d probably never be home if He was that close. even if He were a few hours away i could have swung it. i miss
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i’m feeling better now. i have been less than stable this last week. the student dying, me being so far away from Emperor and then the unexpected hormonal whirlwind that is my period all left me in a funk. i cried last night, like retardedly copiuos tears because i couldn’t think of a thing to
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My inner child is sixteen years old! Life’s not fair! It’s never been fair, but whileadults might just accept that, I knowsomething’s gotta change. And it’s gonnachange, just as soon as I become an adult andget some power of my own. How Old is Your Inner Child? brought to you by Quizilla Tramp Bear Which
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but i am way more emotional now than i have been before. i can blame it on my hormones in flux but for some reason i can’t leave it there. i haven’t cared about anyone on any grand scale in years. this feels foreign and scary and i’m not sure He even wants me to
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and today is reinforcing that ever so much. i have a two alarm system in my house. i wake up and potty with the first one and lay back down. then i usually get up and moving before the second one goes off. well today not so much. i woke up rolled over hit the
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not sure what’s wrong with me lately, i post something trivial then come back and tell you what’s really going on. i need to get back to work on my dissertation but really i’m not so behind i won’t make it. but here’s the thing i’m so stupidly happy right now. i think i said
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“Jesus To A Child” Kindness in your eyesI guess you heard me cryYou smiled at meLike jesus to a childI’m blessed i knowHeaven sent and heaven stoleYou smiled at me likeJesus to a childAnd what have i learnedFrom all this painI thought i’d never feel the sameAbout anyone or anything againBut now i know When
patience was the topic of discussion last night (thanks sidra). why am i rushing this? He is what i want. He represents something incredibly pleasurable for me so why keep intruding on His time and trying His patience. well because He’s not like other men i’ve been attracted to in a variety of ways. men
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