Author name: redvelvetaches

that’s what my office smells like now. i slipped back into my favorite bath junkie scent and that is lulling me into a further state of calm. i love the smell. it’s ridiculous how much i love the smell. i avoided getting the bubble bath the last time i went in (instead got another bottle […]

yep you read that correctly my mind is STILL. it’s quiet in there for the first time in a long time when i was awake. things are clear to me on one hand and cloudy to me on the other. i haven’t spoken to Emperor since Sunday. we flirt, sort of lol, on another board

this entry has no title as of yet. it may not have one at all. today is november 30, 2005. it held no special value for me when i woke up save the fact that today, like every last day of the month (that falls during the work week lol) is payday. i pay rent

and she is my purty little princess lol

not in a mean spiteful way like i might normally lol but just childish. i wanna put on my pajamas, order some pizza, tie my hair back in a ponytail, watch the cartoon network and lounge till i want some ice cream. i know some of you are thinking how is that different from what

you all know i am having a series of tantrums at night because of what i perceive to be a lack of structure. well last night i wasn’t really having one of those. i really was being flirty in my mind and it turned into this big thing that i was so not anticipating. i

i’ve been in a strange mood for the last day or so. a mix between lusting after Him madly and wondering why i sit anxiously awating His call when i am probably not on His mind in the least. yes i know drastic swing there but it’s part of the brat in me that hasn’t

i have a billion thoughts rushing through my brain. some of them will make sense. others will just be scattered and forgive me for that. i have happily had a series of awakenings over the last week or so. i’m grateful for them and feel a lot of my life calming down as a result.

i doubt this initial entry will be very long. partly because i’m hungry, partly because i’m horny and partly because really for once i don’t have a lot to say. i am beyond thankful that all those that i care about seem to be doing well. i’ve talked to most of them and it is