okay i’ve been a blogging maniac since i got back from seeing Emperor. what i am coming to realize is that i am having a few basic central problems. the distance from Him is neither enjoyable or desired. on a daily basis i wish that we had met before i started looking for jobs so […]

i have been wondering that for the last day or so. what does it me for me to submit to Emperor? i’m not a mindless drone of course. i have a fair amount of daily autonomy especially since we are so far apart. i am in His care and under His guidance but i’m not

it’s late and i’ll be getting in bed soon. i’m blogging because Emperor is coming off of His endorphin rush after the Sox latest victory. He has done absolutely nothing to make me pout this evening but i am pouting still. i’m not sure when He will be visiting now which was not necessarily good

i have to wonder that sometimes as i am dealing with men who do not seem to grasp who i am and what i want. i spent the better part of four hours last night trying to explain to someone (for the third or fourth time) why we weren’t going to work out. the biggest

the one thing that i have learned about myself over the last few months is that i have always been this person, this submissive/slave. Emperor often calls me a textbook submissive because from 8 to 5 i may be one of the most in control women you will ever meet. people seek out my advice

okay the two have nothing to do with one another. that accursed affliction that visits me monthly has descended on me with a vengence and really i don’t like it. i’m not in constant pain but when it hits i just want to slap people around and things. i came in to see clients this

okay so yesterday’s post ended with me a little frustrated. well that’s an understatement now isn’t it lol? anyway, as i believe i have said here before He frustrates me. sometimes it seems that He delights in the frustration because He knows He has the power to effect me so. HOWEVER, my anger was real