tired and frustrated

nothing is terribly wrong today. my car is basically fine after i got the tire repaired. work was okay, i got a bit of studying done and i got what mommy wanted from the store on the way home. didn’t get what i wanted because apparently the computer saying something is on hand has no bearing on whether it is actually in the store or not. the drive home was mostly uneventful save a stupid tailgater. nothing should be wrong whatsoever but something is.

no matter how much sleep i’m getting lately i feel tired every morning. i really just want to go back to sleep when i wake up. then i want to take a long shower and wash my hair and get back in the bed until i decide to take a hot bubble bath, get a snack and get back in bed. my body feels more tense than normal and my dreams are getting bizarre. well not totally strange but i’m just not expecting them to come when they come.

more than anything though i’m missing Him a lot more than normal. logically i know He’d talk to me as long as He could whenever He could. emotionally though i need my Daddy and i can’t have Him. no correction, no hugs, no smiles when i finally groggily meet Him in the kitchen early in the morning and try to run out of it quickly because the smell of coffee is slowly giving me a pounding headache. and i have to admit having an assisted kitty killing spree as opposed to a solo mission would be just this side of heaven. hopefully i’ll be over this funk soon. i don’t want Him distracted by my less than stellar mood. anyhoo, i’m off to bed.