the storm outside is calming. i hope that means i can sleep tonight without worrying about how much damage it can do if it returns. the storm inside is calming too. i feel like i keep breaking over and over again. i repair myself enough to get back out there and try again and then something happens and i shatter again. i’m ready for new energy to enter my life and old feelings keep miring me down. in a former life i would have said that this was a sign but i don’t want signs i want peace. none of the possible solutions bring that about immediately so i’m not sure what to do. i want my mind to still my heart and not wait for the unexpected trigger to set me off again. i need to get ready for a meeting.