prompt: describe a mistake you made recently, big or small. how did you deal with it? so many but some would out me with work soooooooo i will just discuss the one that won’t. i mentioned before that i did a dumb thing. but that dumb thing is moving me forward. sometimes i get this overwhelming urge to reach out to the Dutchman. i know it’s dumb. i think the way i cut things off in november mean we won’t talk again unless we are forced to for some reason so yeah there’s that. anyway i sent him a message and then i went to bed. i didn’t expect to hear from him and i have not. it’s okay, that’s on me. he hadn’t responded to earlier more distant messages so this should not have been a shock. i dealt with it by talking to a friend and sorting through the pressing emotions. then i blogged and had an epiphany. and after that i deleted the message. i’m not sure if that deleted things for him. if it did great. if not then i guess it will just sit there untouched. and i deleted it more so i didn’t sit and ruminate on the lack of response. that’s a mental block for me. and now it’s not something i have to dwell on.