this is my confessional

first let me apologize for the billion quizzes that will appear at the end of this post. blogthings had new quizzes up and as my client has not arrived i got quiz happy especially since most of these were pretty short. anyhoo moving on now. you see the title of the post so here’s my confesssion. well there are a lot of them so bear with me.

Confession #1: as much as i like my job and the work i do there are a lot of people i just don’t like. primarily those that think they know everything or how others should live their lives. yes i know by default i get into some of that with work but i never push where a client doesn’t want to go and when it has become obvious that i have then i tend to back down until they are either ready to go there or we change directions. random people annoy me.

Confession #2: no matter how much i try to fight it or deny it and as atypical as i am in most respects i am quite totally a woman in how i react to things now. i have to hang up my tomboy badge and embrace the fuck me heels. i periodically LOVE being girly and flirty and sexy. knowing i made a man lose his composure gives me nothing short of a thrill be it in an argument or because i brushed against him. i have never been more aware of my femininity and in awe of what i can do with it than i am right now and guess what after the winter in the gym the boys will truly be poor innocent victims (well some of them) to my newly fashioned piece of my sexuality.

Confession #3: i totally and complete adore someone that is going to potentially drive me crazy. when He is being the person that caught my attention He’s great and wonderful and makes me wanna snuggle and be His perfect pet. when He is having His mood swing i have no idea what it is i see in Him exactly but i don’t leave. and it’s not that i can fix Him drive that makes me stay. you can’t fix anyone especially when they don’t want to be fixed. i’m not even sure it’s that i know He’s wonderful in so many ways thing because He is but so are hundreds of other men. some part of me is resonating to some part of Him and we will either find the frequency that pulls Him out of that funk or allows me to understand it enough not to take it personally. or things will end tragically as things sometimes do. when i have sudden downturns here, it’s usually because of a sudden downturn with Him. He always smooths it out, doing it much faster now at that, but that’s what is happening. it’s clear He wants me with Him but i’m not sure if He understands Himself in a sense, and me most assuredly, enough to know when He is screwing things up royally. climbing inside His brain to see what makes Him tick is no longer a desired goal lol, i’m afraid it might actually make sense to me and then what does that say about me? He makes me smile though, that nice peaceful all is right with the world type of smile, so maybe that’s what is keeping me hanging on for the right note to be struck.

Confession #4: i have become a blog junkie so even when i’m having funky days i’d rather vent here than sit and stew. i do destructive things when i stew and as i like all of my things and my life in general right now i can’t go tearing things up. so you all are stuck with me funky moods and all.

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Black Comedy

In your life, things are so twisted that you just have to laugh. You may end up insane, but you’ll have fun on the way to the asylum. Your best movie matches: Being John Malkovich, The Royal Tenenbaums, American Psycho

In a Past Life…

You Were: A Kind Chief. Where You Lived: Central Africa. How You Died: Killed in Battle.

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It’d really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don’t let it get you down.

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You’re not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

Your Hidden Talent

You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system. And while this may not seem big, it can be. It’s people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes. You’re just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices.

You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You’re not going to mow over everyone to get ahead… But you’re also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself. You understand how the world works, even when it’s an ugly place. You just don’t get ugly yourself – unless you have to!

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You tend to take more than give in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you’re with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don’t try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren’t loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

You Should Learn Swedish

Fantastisk! You’re laid back about learning a language – and about life in general. Peaceful, beautiful Sweden is ideal for you… And you won’t even have to speak perfect Swedish to get around!

Your Blogging Type is Artistic and Passionate

You see your blog as the ultimate personal expression – and work hard to make it great. One moment you may be working on a new dramatic design for your blog… And the next, you’re passionately writing about your pet causes. Your blog is very important – and you’re careful about who you share it with.

Your Heart Is Red

You’re a passionate lover – you always have a huge fire in your heart. Too bad it’s hard for you to be passionate about just one person! Your flirting style: Outgoing and sexy Your lucky first date: Drinks and dancing Your dream lover: Is both stable and intense What you bring to relationships: Honesty

Your Japanese Name Is…

Mitsuki Takashi

You Are 60% Weird

You’re so weird, you think you’re *totally* normal. Right? But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Silent Devil Your Superpower is Undead Your Weakness is Men Your Weapon is Your Poison Rifle Your Mode of Transportation is Space Shuttle

Your Career Type: Social

You are helpful, friendly, and trustworthy. Your talents lie in teaching, nursing, giving information, and solving social problems. You would make an excellent: Counselor – Dental Hygienist – Librarian Nurse – Parole Officer – Personal Trainer Physical Therapist – Social Worker – Teacher The worst career options for your are realistic careers, like truck driver or farmer.

Your Outrageous Name is:

Ivonna Ardon