I am super tired but that’s not why I’m struggling right now. This is a question that no matter how fluid I consider the term service hasn’t really come to my mind or been an issue. If everything I’ve ever done at the request of my Dominant partner was deemed as a service, the hardest request of me was related to the urine experiments requested by the Dutchman. Once we broke that barrier though everything else was like nothing. Other requests I couldn’t do because I just couldn’t. Different dynamics, the energy didn’t feel cohesive enough to form that kind of connection with that person. With other folks there was never a struggle ever because of either how it was requested or because I knew they’d never ask anything of me that they didn’t think I could easily do. I’m not a service submissive though. I never have been. It’s not what has been asked of me and it’s not what I have aspired to be. Maybe I should. Maybe that will make me more desirable to someone somewhere but my natural inclination is more emotional/psychological submission during which my goal is to physically submit and relinquish control as much as humanly possible.