.:Friday, April 27, 2007:.

-rambling rambling rambling-

my house is mostly clean tonight. i know what's the big deal about that? well for at least 3 years i've mostly lived out of boxes. i unpack the clothes and the books i need for work and keep it moving. my "for pleasure" books don't get opened because well i haven't had any free time to read them even if i wanted to. now that the bloody dissertation is done i might be able to crack one open--after i finish studying for my exam that is. well that's not true i read a book for fun a few weeks ago. umm i'm rambling now lol. i never really unpacked because homes are temporary until i find the best job ever or have kids or what not.

my mother has been beyond frustrated with that and with the fact that most of her stuff is not here. well we spent the last six days, well the we is more of the royal we cause she isn't really able to do all that much, cleaning out boxes that hadn't been touched in years and putting away boxes and stuff into the spare closet in my room. my mother is now overjoyed. everything is in it's place as far as she is concerned and it tickles her heart. and some of it was helpful, we got rid of a lot of junk which was good and i got ideas about where i would like to permanently place some things and got all the study material i needed to get together either on one shelf of the bookcase or my little gray cabinet that was never more than a holding cell for crap i didn't know what to do with. i have to clear off the bed tomorrow and decide where we are going to put my massive cabbage patch kid collection until her stuff gets here and gets situated. but she is an unpacker so lord knows i'll come home one day and all of my babies--all 31 ish of them--will be assembled and waiting for me when i get home one day next week.

i did a just for red thing this afternoon. i got my hair all nice and tended to and found out my beautician is likely going to be relocating but it's closer to my place and i might be able to get my nails done at the same time. that's always cool. all in all it was a good week just busy at work and home. i miss Him of course. i always miss Him though. don't want to get into that too much because i will start crying. okay i'm done rambling. talk to you later.

red

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.:Tuesday, April 24, 2007:.

-but i can make you famous-

well i might make you famous, but only if you piss me off and even then it's sorta gonna be a cloudy infamy as i'm not going to ever reveal your name. today is a happy day. even though i apparently really didn't need to worry i of course did worry about whether or not i was going to get passed through to take the exam to get my license. i did though and it's a happy day kind of situation. except well He's not home to give me a congratulatory spanking or nothing. but then again that could be a bad spanking right now as i would likely be laughing at the miami heat for falling behind the chicago bulls by sixteen points at the moment. toronto got themselves together and won the second game of the series so it's all square there and i'm promised a few more games--yippee yippee yippee.

i am still working on the smut. but right now i'm going to focus on studying and from there i'll hopefully stumble upon the right creative team to let me get the smut packaged out to you in the right fashion. otay, i might edit later but right now i want to get back to the game and relieving a bit of stress.

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.:Friday, April 20, 2007:.

-i was dreaming when i wrote this-

well not exactly. i was back in bed like i was yesterday trying to shake a nagging cough and sore throat. got better drugs and the coughing is clearing out whatever it is my body seems to have contracted but really don't want to be sick again. i don't enjoy it especially since no one is home to baby and take care of me the way i would appreciate at the moment. it hasn't given me a chance to catch up on my random movie watching.

i just finished watching children of men which simultaneously had me very intrigued and scared out of my skull. i mean what really would we do if the random infertility that plagues us was more widespread and there was no cure for it? i'm not sure but if it ended up anything like this movie then i am going to opt for immediate cyanide because good lord this was a hot mess. don't watch it if you are looking for a nice happy movie by the way. it's a good movie to spark conversation but it's not a happy movie. it can provide you with a bit of hope in a twisted way though. but again maybe that's just me lol as i am strange. i'm going to rewatch another movie to figure out why i don't like it. i seem to be one of the only people that doesn't like it and i want to know if it's cause i really do hate the plot or it's because of the actor. i haven't decided yet. after that i am going to watch my new movies from the disney movie club. 5 movies for 30 bucks--can't beat that at all lol. especially since they were really like 2 bucks a pop for the first three and then discounted on the next two but still taking off one of the old pesky required movies to buy later.

let's see other than that i started my clean out process of a few more things i need to address before i finish the filing away part of the move. i stumbled upon a lot of cards and letters and things related to my father that i have likely not touched since i put them in there. some made me smile, some made me cry, some made me wonder who are you and why can't i picture your face. mostly though it made me think that i have been wonderfully blessed to have the friends i have and my father touched a lot of peoples' lives. both of those things were good thoughts to have and hold onto. so i am and will play with the cards until tomorrow when i tuck them back away.

ahhh and two other things have come up as well. well potentially three or more but let's go in order of my random thoughts. i think i am ready to start writing in earnest. that means i have ot start getting ready for folks to critique the smut i've written and help guide me in the best direction for the future--well without steering me too far off of my own smutty trajectory. i'll let y'all know when and if any progress is made there. i hope to find out if i got the first hurdle of my licensure review done soon and if so then it's back to study for one last test.

off tangent---i love judi dench and thandie newton. i'm always surprised by the roles they take and the way they twist those roles. the only thing that was mildly disappointing about this film for thandie is they somewhat oversexualize her (is that a word) but they never really use that hypersexual appearance for anything. she's clearly manipulating nearly every man in this movie but there's a level missing there. okay that could just be me because i'm horny again.

brings me to my last item for the moment. i have been going back and forth between gathering information and ideas on nice Catholic weddings and my own vision of this day to why exactly am i pondering this as He hasn't even asked me to marry Him? each moment is distinct and neither is all that deep meaning i'm not bridezilla or anti-bride at either end. my brain is conflabulated every now and then. i love Him so deeply and can't imagine not spending our lives together most days but other days i just want to fuck Him silly and avoid the chapel for as long as humanly possible. i think all of this just means that i need a nice good spanking lol. and i'll leave you all with this picture below. i'm liking the suave british boys lately especially as they aren't seeming all gangly and asexual lol. no offense to british boys but the ones that come to mind beyond actors are all thin rock stars. anyhoo have a good night.

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.:Thursday, April 19, 2007:.

-Get Under the Covers with He's On Top-

howdy ladies and gents,

the velvet rope is happy to review rachel kramer bussel's He's On Top. i love to read and finding good books that accurately talk about the lifestyle is harder than finding a valuable piece of verbiage coming from the shrub on pennsylvania avenue. i have to admit i was pleasantly surprised by the collection of stories that make up this volume. The stories are a nice balance between the mental state of both the Dom and His submissive. And for once I was glad to not know where the Dom was leading the story in question. It was also a treat to see the transformation that can take place in women, your average everyday woman, who needs more control in her life than she is even aware of and the pleasure that getting it finally brings to her life. i could have just as easily said my life there having been one of those women at some point in time but not being as lucky as the wife in Confession to have a husband that broke her down and gave her what she ultimately had been craving for. Of course there were spankings and toys and sluts and whores. But there was also an unexpected bit of remorse from a Master that might have overstepped His relationship with His slave. Not every story will resonate for you depending on what you are looking for but more of them than not will make you wish your significant other was handy if they aren't or might make your book a little sticky if you are as easily distracted as i am. And i'll have to admit the thought of being in a few of the outfits (particularly naughty schoolgirls lol) probably rushed across the ocean and invaded Roaming Soldier's brain with the strength with which it overwhelmed mine. Please pick it up and enjoy.

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.:Sunday, April 15, 2007:.

-O is for Ovation-

she was getting sleepy so she figured she'd better get up and get to moving. she looked around the strange room and hoped He would like it. Sneaking away from home was always hard to arrange but the stars had aligned and they could at least spend a night at the plush hotel. she put on her heels after she adjusted her stockings. Even with the few extra inches the heels afforded her, He would be towering over her whenever they both stood up. she walked over to the mirror and smoothed out the simple black dress she chose to wear for the evening. she pinned her loose curls up around her face and let the rest fall around her shoulders. From His vantage point He'd be able to see the tattoo on her breast when He approached her. she smiled and then walked out of the room. she found a seat at the bar and waited for her table to be prepared. she had asked for something secluded on the terrace because she was wanted to watch the storm roll in before dinner was over. The maitre d' found her and placed her drink on small tray as he led her to the table she requested. The air smelled wonderful and she could feel the impending storm brewing. she was sipping on the chocolate martini she ordered when she heard a plop fall into the drink and then a wet drop hit her nearly bare shoulder. The air crackled with a flash of lightening followed by a rumble of thunder. she said shit out loud and was grabbing her drink to head back indoors when He got to the table. He raised an umbrella and stood back so that she could get closer to Him under it.

"Now that didn't sound very ladylike darling," He said as He bent forward to kiss her forehead. she smiled up at Him with her head slightly cocked.

"You always arrive in the nick of time don't You?"

"Always my dear. Always," He replied as He moved her back into the restaurant. They were seated at a new table and ordered dinner. She virtually cooed as the warm duck breast entered her mouth. He heartily enjoyed His steak and coerced her into ordering a very large chunk of chocolate cake that they split. They finished a bottle of wine over the course of the meal and she was feeling very relaxed by the time He paid the check and walked her over to the bank of elevators. It was late enough that most of the guests were either out enjoying the sights or nestled snuggly in their beds. she fondled the handle of the umbrella He had rescued her with and drug her leg along the shaft. He pounced on her as the doors slid open on their floor. she managed to wiggle free and sprint down the hallway giggling as she went. He gave chase and delivered His best Big Bad Wolf impression as she stood in the doorway waiting for Him. A door down the hall eased open and an elderly couple peered out at them. They paused and then gave an apologetic nod in the direction of the perturbed couple before disappearing behind their heavy door. He pressed her against it and kissed her deeply. When He broke the kiss, she purred a bit and then slid the extra lock into place. He tugged on the straps of her dress and kissed on her shoulder as He inhaled deeply. "you must want Daddy to eat you up tonight." she giggled again before He shushed her. He bit into her skin repeatedly before He undressed her. When the dress fell to the ground He was silent for a moment. she had her breasts perched in two slightly stiff paste on cups that matched her dress. The lacy hipster panties barely holding her behind in place were tantalizing Him before He glanced down at her thigh high stockings. He yanked the cups off and watch her breasts spring free. "To the bed baby, to the bed."

she climbed on the bed and rolled herself up onto her back and rested on her shoulders. she watched Him rush to pull off His tie and she asked Him to slow down a bit. He smiled down at His little girl and then started stripping for her. He knew she would be laughing soon but it would just prolong the evening. she managed not to laugh before He got down to His boxer briefs. she gestured for Him to join her in the bed. He spread out over her and they started kissing again. It was her turn to lick and bite His neck a bit. she felt Him stiffen while He was grinding against her and she wanted Him inside of her desperately. her heels hooked into the sides of His underwear and pulled them off of Him. He grinned down at her and spoke, "A little eager aren't we?" she only nodded at Him before she was surprised by Him quickly standing up. He walked over to His bag and pulled out the cd case He brought for the evening and went over to what He thought was just a clock radio. Instead it was a nice BOSE system and when the music came tumbling out of the speakers they were both surprised. It didn't distract Him long though. He sat in the recliner and told her to come over to Him. she did as she was told and before she could blink twice she was spread across His lap and was getting a very stimulating over the knee spanking. He could smell her excitement in the air and was tempted to stop then but she let out a wonderful yelp that just increased His desire to keep spanking her. He saw her hairbrush laying on the table and decided it would work as a makeshift paddle. her breathing deepened and she started moaning after each swat made contact with her lace covered behind. He finally stopped and just let His hand rest on her warm bottom. He pulled off her panties and massaged her behind a bit. He stood up and walked her back to bed. she sat down and winced a slight bit before she was face to face with her bottle.

she smiled at it and then up at Him waiting for permission to do what she wanted and He just stood there smiling down at her. she figured it would be worth the spanking so she took a deep breath and sucked Him into her mouth. If anyone had been listening through the walls then they might have thought a baby was feeding. she suckled and sighed like any infant would that was getting a nice bottle feeding. He made the face He always did when she started inching Him down her throat and then let out a loud groan. she pulled away from the shaft and paid some gentle attention to the head of His dick. He said enough and she unfastened her lips from her favorite toy. He asked her to lay on her stomach and she obliged. He was ready to guide Himself inside of her when the lightening caught her attention. He opened the blinds so she could watch the storm as He fucked her, well when her eyes were open she could watch. The cd played a song that brought both of them back to the long time they were apart. The male voice softly sung,

"Settle down love for a minute
I wanna take you by the hand and hold you
I've waited so many nights
To see you
And I wanna take out all my problems on you"



He kissed her back before He slid inside of her. The intrusion was quick and her pussy locked onto Him instantly. Watching the rain was making her extra wet and she came so quickly the first time that neither of them expected it. she wanted more though and He gave it to her as best as He could. They were in a sexual daze and their bodies were just responding to one another. He was relishing the way her body just became a big wet soft kiss for Him to plunder at His leisure and she greatly appreciated the ridiculous amount of stamina the military training had provided Him. It didn't matter how many times He came, if she was still awake so was He. The cd had started over and was nearing the end again when a thought occurred to Him. He walked her over to the window and pressed her body against the glass. she sang quietly with the musician as His grip fixed on her neck and He moved up inside of her forcing her onto her tiptoes.

"See the person I love the most
Is so far away tonight
And no other medicine or promise is
Gonna heal me up right
But I got to believe
That her and me
Will be together
Cause thats all I got
And Oh, I know
When you're down at the bottom
Can you believe"



her hands clawed at the windows a bit as her whimpering started and provided the motivation He needed to put them both to bed. He pulled her legs up and held them to His thighs. she was suspended on His dick and pinned between Him and the window. she moaned loudly and He fucked her slowly until she started to shake. He increased His strokes until He was ready to come. she begged Him then to not make her come alone and the two of them climaxed with her nearly nude body still stuck to the glass. When her breathing settled again, He lowered her to the ground and closed the curtains. she gingerly walked over to the bed and climbed in on her usual side to wait for Him to join her. He lay flat on His back and she let her head rest on His shoulder. He pulled her closer to Him and kissed her on the forehead again.

"You know one of these days folks are going to quit renting us rooms if we keep popping up nude in the windows."

"Not they won't honey. At least not these windows, we had a nice crowd watching us. Plus I'll just blame it on your breasts and mouth and someone will forgive my indiscretion." He kissed her again like that would take care of it whenever that did come to pass. "Besides by the time we were done, at least three of them were applauding." she blushed deeply before He kissed her for what felt like the hundredth time that night and they spoke softly as the break for the last song of the cd came to an end. He turned it off and was happy that she had waited for Him all those years back.

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.:Friday, April 13, 2007:.

-old lady for sale, bid quick-

i promise this post won't ramble on about my mother indefinitely but she's crazy. i spent a piece of my afternoon returning something she shouldn't have bought in the first damn place. she likes to shop for jewelry in particular using QVC and tv stations like that. about two months ago someone called from the company that she is returning crap to about an order at the time she denied making. of course i'm at work when the mail comes so i would have no idea what she ordered or when unless it came from one company that sends me email when her order is placed. ummm i am off tangent. she's mad today because i put my extensions back in and didn't curl it up like a seven year old like she likes. then she got madder because i wouldn't write something on a piece of paper that she could put on the paper herself and she's "never going to ask me for anything ever again ever" which would be fine except she's said that about 10 times since she's lived here and that obviously hasn't lasted so i'm not holding my breath. anyhoo enough about mommy.

i left my office today to get my monthly dose of creamy crack. fresh perm is a beautiful thing i swear. i have a crapload of stuff to do this weekend though and i'm trying to decide if i'm up to being a good sorority girl this weekend and next weekend. my brain is saying no you aren't sit your butt home and rest but i love being with my girls so we'll see. i added the extensions again this month as well. my hair got a lot thicker and a bit longer the month i had them in before now. so my stylist and i decided to alternate a bit and see if it happened again. last month it got to rest and got thicker still so we may have hit on the thing to get my hair as long and healthy as it used to be. i went back to work and the lights went out in he middle of my session. that was hilarious lol. i'm just a bit tired now. it's been a busy week and a good emotional one as well. talking to Roaming Soldier twice in the same week is virtually unheard of for me lately so that was very very wonderful. it's not hard to remember that He loves me but it's always great to be reminded and really i get to be cake lol so that's always great too.

i got my study material ready to so now it's time for me to get cracking on the monster exam that will determine whether or not i get licensed. i am not terribly worried but i hate studying even though i love standardized exams. go figure. smut is coming i promise. i'll see ya later.

red

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.:Tuesday, April 10, 2007:.

-my everloving candy-

okay it's been a great 24 hours i promise. late last night, well late for me, it was probably the middle of the day wherever my lovely Roaming Soldier is, i got a ding that makes me smile. He asked me if i knew how much He loved me. Of course i do but it's always nice to hear so i said nope tell me again. In true Roaming Soldier fashion he replied with "I love you like a fat man loves cake." It was a nice long conversation and we got flirty and sweet and discussed babies. Somehow the three we had tentatively agreed on became more fluid last night and something short of a baseball team starting line up seemed okay. i went to bed not too long after He signed off smiling more than i have recently. He promised He'd be on later (for Him, next day for me) but the military has a way of screwing up His promises so i wasn't holding my breath. imagine my surprise after i walked my last client out and i had a recent message from Him. He was able to stay on for a long while too, we talked for two hours for the first time in i don't know when. it's nice to be peaceful. that's what i am when i know He's okay. and of course when my mind is put to rest then my smutty brain can reignite. for those of you that don't know what that means just be on the lookout for O is for something or other. i haven't decided what yet but i have three ideas bouncing around in my head and one of them links back to the alphabet that has already been posted. anyway, life seems a totally different place when i'm reminded of my place with Him. It's not even that He did or said anything in particular but His presence, albeit digital, was enough to quiet the noisy parts of my brain that get fired up when i hear horrible reports on the soldier death toll in iraq over the last 10 days or when i make the mistake of watching The Unit when i really shouldn't lol.

i was gonna repost it's so amazing to be loved but thanks to my buddy who i'll refer to as GQ i was roaming around youtube and came across the video i posted below. for you Cosby Show freaks/fans you'll know the episode quickly. If for some reason you were unable to see the Cosby show in all of its glory when it originally aired please enjoy the snippet and try to grab the seasons at your local library. okay well i'm done for now. going to let me brain toss around O.

Labels: Daddy, life is good, sappy

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.:Saturday, April 07, 2007:.

-too much thinking-

well that's not why i haven't posted since tuesday. i haven't posted because it's the end of the semester and my job is kicking my ass. trying to get things together and it's not always working out smoothly. plus i got a surprise (only because i like to forget she's coming) visit from the evil bitch woman that invades my body once a month and makes it so unpleasant to be me. but at least she comes with heavy duty pain killers so i guess i'll suck that up.

i have, maybe to my detriment, finally gone back to my local library. it's a great place to get movies for free that you get to keep for a week at least. new movies, old movies, kiddie movies and tv shows. pretty much everything but porn and let's face it i have my own porn connection. i did finish the e lynn harris book i picked up. it's interesting enough to read in one sitting but not one that if you had to put down that you would like pick back up and keep reading if you didn't have to. it wasn't a bad three hour read but it wasn't one of his best to me. but then again i haven't particularly liked the last book before then even though it wrapped up nicely. i didn't read the toni morrison book but she has a tendency to make my head hurt so i'll try it again later.

now i'm watching romancing the bride which seems very cute. i hope it wouldn't take an affair the night before your wedding for you to decide that you want to be with your husband or not but hey do whatever you need to do in order to make everything okay for yourself. life is what happens when you start making plans i guess. have to stop planning out the life and live it to its fullest. so i have to let my mind wander back to smut central and see if Roaming Soldier joins me there. i've been missing Him a lot lately. as Night Owl keeps saying, He's my weed in my garden of life loosely translated to i'll never be able to get rid of Him. not that i didn't know that before now lol. He's abostively wonderful after all.

i got my camera back yesterday. it took the full 10 days to get returned but it works again and i don't have to spend 200 bucks on a new one because of course i'd have to upgrade at this point. i am hungry damn it, train of thought is all over the place. i've been looking at stuff about being Catholic and talking to more people about converting. my brother laughed at me and said "yeah you are going to have to do that if you want the type of wedding you are talking about." he had to debate that when he and my sister in law got married because she's Catholic. now they have to discuss all of that with baby velvet that's on the way. they both attend a non denominational church right now but they are probably going to baptize the baby Catholic and then let them decide what they want to do at some later point. ummm be right back, gotta put on a movie.

okay i tried to put on a movie but i had to put some stuff in the mail and now i need to finish watching this "wrong man" show on courtTV and then "till death" comes on about couples who snap and one kills the other one. it's twisted but in case you guys hadn't figured out i have a massively twisted sense of humor and find that part of life intriguing. what makes people lose their mind and hurt one another? well in that non consensual fashion lol. i know why people CAN hurt each other when given permission. hell i'm counting down the days until i can be one of those people lol. ahhh well i'm starting to ramble i believe. green lantern i'm sending you a surprise so be on the look out for it. Night Owl i'll be harassing you later. everyone else soon as bitchy mcbitch leaves i'll get back to my smut output.

see ya
red

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.:Tuesday, April 03, 2007:.

-do you love me lol-

if you don't it's okay but you know i wuv you. okay so that's not true. i like most of you. i love a few of you and some of you i am happy to call friend. one of you i'm happy to call Daddy (oh yeah baby). i'm in the middle of making myself a big pan of lasagna. it's going to be nummy and i'm going to make some garlic bread-y things to go with it. they are really croissants but they are garlic and buttery so it will work out just fine. i'm sure my mother will make a salad to go with it but i'm having a carnivore moment. must eat meat however it is packaged. i found two adorable books for my new niece and/or nephew. one is called please baby please and the other is called please puppy please both are by spike lee and his wife tonya. they are cute if you are looking for something multicultural to give to kids. my mother giggled mightily as she read them and said oh my god you did that so much when you were little. they aren't long books to be sure but i have had a copy for my kids that have yet to arrive on this earth for a while now. i love em lol.

hmmm stay tuned on the 19th for my review of Rachel Kramer Bussel's He's On Top. i'm part of book tour to promote her two books (He's On Top and She's On Top) which discuss bdsm and the lifestyle from male dominant and female dominant perspectives. of course as a happy subbie type girl i opted for He's On Top and will be reading it and a few other books i picked up from the library yesterday. gotta love the public library. let's see other than that nothing much is going on. i was able to talk to Him a few days ago which always makes me feel better and then of course there is a bit of a crash because i want Him home right now. i'm better now and have been looking more into the conversion process and what we would have to plan on during a traditional Catholic wedding. this basically means the things i was planning to honor my dad, littlest soldier's mom and our union might not be able to be done because they aren't part of a traditional Catholic ceremony. it's up to the priest to make an exception to that if they choose. and i can pretty much cancel walking down the aisle to the song that has been playing in my head forever. i guess we could make that the first dance song instead. it's still going to make me cry lol. anyhoo enjoy the new quiz.

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)

Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant. Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

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